tomdark

One day I'm going to wake up and feel how the sun penetrates my skin, and makes me feel alive, how the sun makes my body feel in light just for once. That will be the day in which I am going to cry and thank myself for being able to go through all this pain, and for not giving up all this time. The time where darkness was everything I had inside my heart, and darkness was everything I saw in people. I'm going to be a better person, I will be a generous one, a humble person that actually feels empathy for others. I won't be the person that does actions only to make himself feel better and not a piece of trash as the rest of the world usually

I don't get what these days are, I don't know if this is a mean joke or it's a sad reality, I dream about having sex everyday, but I just don't know how to make those dreams come reality. I try to not look at your photos, but it's kind of impossible, since your countenance is stuck on my mind. I need to learn how to digest it. Your eyes urge me to look for you more and more, but if I did that, I couldn't handle the pain at the moment I realize you're not there to hug me. Not even cigarettes can help me, I try to taste something new to get relaxed, seems it's impossible, handling all the pain and crying seems to be more impossible things, I